I always wondered if you ever
cared enough to dare to fight what
you thought was right so I
could win for a change

I always wondered why you spoke so
highly of yourself, so high above me,
but never had the security to allow
me to believe in the fabrication
of my insecurities

I always wondered how you could
believe you were so strong,
then cried at every moment
and oppurtunity when you
thought i did you wrong

I always wondered how you could percieve
so much injustice being commited
around the integrity of this world,
but failed in the perception of wrongdoings
as close a proximity as your own words

I always wondered how you could
preach to me the beauty of God's words,
when with my very own eyes, I have
witnessed the hypocrisy from
lies you fed to your deepest thoughts

I always wondered how you could talk
of wanting love, love so deep, so real, so thick
you could touch it with your fingers, your lips, your eyes,
yet when it came upon you, you denied it, shied away,
disdained it, then finally, realeased it....
I'm starting to wonder....

maybe it's the wrong person doing all the wondering