The darkness that is calling to me,
Is frightening and scary.
The one thing that I don't want to do,
I must do now to get over you.
You have caused me so much pain,
The darkness is calling me again.
You do not understand it seems,
What this does or what it means.
Blood will flow tonight,
This is what will make it right.
I have to do this please understand,
It is the only thing that makes it better again......
My knife I will sharpen in a minute,
To cut the pain out with it.
It makes it better, it lets it out,
Make fun of me, I have no doubt....
You don't understand what it is like,
To hurt so much you want to end your life!!!
I cannot do that because of my boys,
But I can do things, and no, they bring no joy.
Long sleeves will be used to cover up,
The pain I have to let it out.
I cannot go on this way,
I feel my life is in such disarray!!
I am terrified it will go to deep,
One of these days, please God my soul do keep.

Written by Katherine Donley April 6, 2009