My walk of solitude

I went walking upon a path of solitude,
I let my mind digress, it took its' own course.
I didn't know where my jourey would end,
I didn't even know how it began.
Somewhere along the way, I began to speculate.
Was this what I yearned for?
Is this where I would reach my finish?
For a time I was a halcyon woman, content with being me.
Then I became a peripatetic,
It seemed I had become confounded,
It seemed I had lost my very soul.
Darkness became my constant companion,
Encompassing every aspect of my life,
Smothering me as if I were drowning.
It was like I was watching myself from the outside in.
I wanted to scream,
It was as if I was having a constant panic attack.
I was gasping for air,
But I was defenseless.
Begging to be let free.
I ran from place to place,
Person to person,
No one noticed.
I pleaded for God to help me,
I was alone.
Suddenly I looked up,
It was as if I was smacked in the face with a wooden beam,
A man was standing before me.
A man I knew was placed in front of me by God himself,
He was the answer to my prayers.
This man was the same man as before,
The man I was running from.
He was my haven,
He was where I needed to be.
Safe.