Can’t I be mean to you?

I can’t seem to say the words that are on the edge of my lips

Instead I stand speechless

Silently taking the stabs, punches and hits

That your words seem to be taking on my soul

Every word is another blow

You slowly bring me down

But I rise again in time

Though my mouth remains chained

And every action fills my mind

Can’t I blame you?

I seem so willing to take all responsibility

Though your actions make you just as guilty

I gather my strength for battle

But my kind heart seems to betrays me

It must be so

Every time I reach the end of my rope

I can never seem to let my go

Say the right words and I’m yours again

Can’t I be angry with you?

I want you to feel the fury of my wrath

Isn’t it possible for you hurt like I do?

Or maybe I need thicker skin

These wounds are much too deep

My tongue longs to be free

I stand firmly

But my core is shaken within

As I slowly suffer in silence