The music has stopped, the dance has ceased, and all laughter has come to a halt.

All things have come to a standstill and the mere calmness and stillness indicates there's about to be an attack. Silence of loneliness over shadows her and she remains in search of what she so desperately desires and lacks
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Now through the comfort of loneliness and despair, reality takes a seat. She remembers every time a brutha walked into her life and said "I Love You' in which in her knees it made her weak.

Although they walked in her life with nothing, but unfortunately they left with her heart. They took her heart and with no regret or compassion walked on it and tore it apart.

She lent her heart to those that she thought would always be there. But as the sneaky conartists that they were, they stole until they could steal no more and left her in a state of despair.
 
Now a defensive wall she has built and it's shown by the attitude she has. Every layer of pain she's experienced makes the wall higher and stronger and every brutha that comes has to reap the consequences of the bruthas from the past.

They walk in, pretend they love her, screw and leave her and then have the nerve to ask can we at least still be friends? But now her feelings are wrapped up, tied up and tangled up in them and for her, it's not the end.

So this sad story called life continues on and on dishing out many of its let downs and disappointments. A cycle that seems to be unbreakable and for this woman with these impostors that pretend they're something they're not she has an unavoidable predestined appointment.

Her desire is to have a man that loves her for her and not for what's between her legs and thighs. But every time she thinks she has the new brutha in her life figured out he does the same exact thing and all the memories and pain from times past rushed in again like fresh rain and uncontrollably she cries.

She prays "God Oh Dear God, help me and ease this pain". But He quickly lets her know that without some pain she'll never appreciate the blessing that she's about to gain.

And at last the sun starts to shine again and all tears are dried up and there's a smile on her face. Simply because she realizes that she's beautiful inside and out and somehow learns to accept things she cannot change and knows that God has appointed and predestined her to be in this place.

Why God allowed her to be in this place, at this time, going through all the pain, nobody knows, but maybe just maybe it's just his will for her and just like a women giving birth, through the pain comes life. So she goes through the pain willingly knowing that one day God is going to send her a husband that's going to make her his wife.

So she understands now although she still feels the pain she shall live and not die. She may scream in frustration and tears she may cry. But one day as an angel that God created her to be, she’ll spread her wings and soar over all obstacles in the crystal blue sky.

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