as my trembling hands shake uncontrolably and tears fall from my eyes a bombardment of thoughts explode in my mind

will i ever fel the love and warmth i felt so many years ago

will my distraught emotions be balanced by the smallest gesture such as a smile or a soft spoken word

how i yearn to see and hear these beautiful expressions again

as i lay alone in the dark i wonder slightly wising upon thoughts of not wakeing

but then reality rushes in like a flooded river out of control sweeping me back to my reality

i wake and begin my day as i have a hundred times before only this time something is missing there is a void in my day in my mind in my life

it is love and as i think of what is so close to my grasp it haunts me knowing i cant lift my hand to grab for it

all of a sudden my hands begin to tremble uncontrolably it is the begining of a new day just like yesterday