The tears fall down my face
as I think of the damage that's been done
to my soul
by the man I love the most

How could I have been so wrong
...it wasn't that long ago
I honestly believed forever
was forever

I believed in love and trust and honesty
How silly it must have seemed to you
to have thought my dreams were anything more
than what they were...
my distorted reality

And now I bleed into the realness of this misery
and the pain cuts so deep
....I just want to sleep
forever
But I can't
and that makes it even harder
Functioning in a life
that no longer makes sense

There is a blackness growing inside
it is a welcome relief
this turning to stone...nothing left to feel
nothing that is real anyway

Perhaps I will drown
in the pain
or the nothingness
which ever comes first
And this hurt will be gone

or
perhaps
by some miracle

I will somehow learn to be strong
without you