I didn’t like you all the time but I loved you
I thought that you would be the one I looked up to
Not a second, nor a minute or an hour of the day
Have you ever called me while sober just to say
I love you my younger brother no acknowledgement at all
Whenever you were stuck or short of cash I’d get a call
Never as close as I wanted, too late now but I hate it
I was always in your corner and always praying that you’d make it
To be successful somehow and I didn’t want to doubt you
For once I just wanted the chance to brag about you
Instead of calling me for nothing and wasting my time
Why not call me for the things that weighed heavy on your mind
What haunted you at night when you didn’t want to sleep?
From the past or the present you could have talked to me
What is it that made you drink damn near all your life?
What made you turn your back on your children and your wife?
I have a voicemail on my phone I can't seem to erase
Every time I play it I can still see your face  
I can’t stop these tears from falling but I’m so f#$%ing mad
Biologically you were the only brother that I had
Cussing at the top of my lungs as I continue to cry
With a hand full of questions asking big brother why
You grabbed your favorite pillow and laid down on the bed
Took the gun out of the bag and put it to your head