Its another day,I have dealt
with disappointment,but this
was the day,I had plans to
implement.
I know what I want,cause I can
hear it screaming inside,can
I feed it enough,so that this
pain will subside.
I can never do enough,to make
this go away,the more I
feed it,I myself, become
a stray.
Its hard to have hope,when
this pain grows stronger,I
feel I am dying,and it
probably wont be much
longer.
Sometimes I think of a way
to kill the pain,I need to
realize,that this pain is like
an old person relying on
his cane.
I can shoot and aim,and
find many people to blame,
but through my choices and
decisions,it is me who
is getting maimed.
Everybody has given up,
through my own admission,
how did I ever let myself
get into this condition.
Family,friends,are becoming
more distant,death can be
in a flash,or just an
instant. I must find the strength,
to conquer the evil, that
has been growing,or there will
be a procession,with my ashes
bellowing.
The crying must stop,not from
the pain I feel inside,but from the
the pain and suffering,from me
always denying.
I can turn over my leaf,
with just one flip of my
hand,but I need my
family,for all this to begin.
The time is now,for this
pain to subside,Im at the
end,when both of us
will die.
I want to live,someone please
be by my side,and kill this thing,
thats living inside.