Does it matter?

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    • Jeannie
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    I wrote this after my move to Colorado with someone I thoought I was in a relatiionship with - only to find out he asked me to uproot my daughter and I to only move with him so that he was not alone.  he told me that he was not attracted to me physically but wanted us with him so that he was not alone in a new town. 
    funny thing is he is more alone now even with us here than if he had come alone.
    I am moving on... and i will be happy - he is the one that gets to be alone just as he was hoping not to be.

    Written 07/27/09

    Does it matter?

     Does it matter how I feel?
    What I want or know is real?
    Does it matter that my heart is here?
    Just wanting to be filled?

    Does it matter that I want you?
    But I know that is not enough to see us through...
    Does it matter knowing I am not the one?
    the one who turns you on... just as long as I hold on?

    Does it matter that I am here?
    Wanting nothing less to just be near...
    Does it matter that I am trying to change?
    To see the spark and feel the blaze?

    Does it matter tha I care so much?
    To know change is important but not enough.
    Does it matter that you don't care?
    Life's to short for you to even be aware...

    It does not matter what I have to offer - it's not enough.
    The changes you wanted have started but I feel they don't matter...
    It's not about me or what's inside -
    the looks are important with nothing to hide.

    I think I am beautiful on the inside and out
    If you can't see that then you are missing out!
    Missing out on all I can give
    Because you are shallow and just have nothing to give!

    Someone else will get the chance
    to see what I have in store
    All the love and joy I can give
    Will be at someone elses door

    Then you will have what you are looking for
    to be alone with no one at your door
    It is you that I feel sorry for
    Because I have what you are looking for.


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    Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

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