I AM ONLY ME

   
There is a ME inside of me. It is just waiting to come out. Where is it hiding because of the "fear" of men?

Every time that this ME surfaces, men force it back into me. They got to realize, that this ME is divine, for they allow it out of me; only to propel their own needs.

As soon as "services are rendered", men force the ME back inside of me again.

ME is constantly kept in a secret tin. throughout the years, whether at work or at play; no on knows about these men's secret resource; for they do not say. As soon as they do not have uses for ME, the lid of the tin is snapped right on.

Quite recently, ME decided that it was time to individuate. ME feels from seeing others thankfully progress because of it; but groans when those same men crush it every time that it surfaces for exploration or expansion of self to be of better service to others.

But the men act as a group. Whispering about the ME that is no longer remaining surfaced for just a little while to be used and abused. Together they act in group-think. God remains on my side; for it is he who is in me that can no longer be contained in men's "looked-over" tin!

Strong ones in the group, get the followers to "see' why this ME should remain covered up; but only secretly utilized. Opportunities get barred. Papers or letters are not handed in, and promises are withdrawn.

Outsiders cannot get close to this ME, though they often get close to me. It is harder to destroy ME than it is to temporarily destroy me; for God sees me through but ME is in the spirit.

ME is being asked by those who know me, "were you really there all of this time? "We suspected that you had "sense" that others used, but is this what they were using for themselves? Is this what we are now afraid of; the Plan and Purpose of the Most High? the fact that you can bring about 'revolutionary change" in your own way? Is this what the confusion over time was "quiet but not quiet"? We could not find words to describe this invisible strength that appeared weak on the surface'!

"The fact that your knowledge can give us fame, we acknowledge; but we cannot allow you to be a part of your own wisdom. We cannot "see" your strength to use it. god should have given it to someone who looked fiercer".

"We need it to add to our own strength. What are you going to do with it anyway; be NICE AND QUIET AND KNOWLEDGEABLE? come on. We have always used you as a resource, dictionary, encyclopedia, for information. We have even used you as a Doormat because you are so ready to say "yes and always helping out someone. Go back into that tin and be covered"!


                        By JACQUELYN McCAMMON-JUNOR, RN, BSN.