You're laying here right next to me

Fast asleep and breathing deep.

You stir for a moment eyes open in a squint

They find me there and pull me close

Your lips whisper they love me

And then your gone again into your sleep.

I study your face memorize every inch

The curve of your cheek the line of your jaw

The brush of your eyelashes the sweep of your hair

The way that you breath, your chest as it rises and falls

I take a deep breath, wish I could bottle your smell

I stay awake afraid to sleep afraid to forget a single detail

As I lay here I'm gazing at you, taking you in, remembering you

But also I'm wondering about you, about a future with you can it be true?

I imagine what it'd be like married to you, having kids with you, dying with you

I wonder if you see it too starting a life with me, living with me, growing old with me

Or is it just my own fantasy my own imaginings my own ever after happily