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My life has no meaning
I've never taken risks
I wish this life was over
But I'm too scared to slit my wrist
With everything I do
I try to please others
I don't think in this life
My true self will be discovered
I go to school because
Everyone expects me to
My heart isn't really in it
But no one has a clue
I paint a smile on my face
Because thats what people like to see
But I'm not even sure
If this cheerfull person is really me
I used to be in foster care
I went through many families
I tried to be a good girl
So that they would pick me
They wanted me to be perfect
Not a problem child
Not one of those kids who thew fits
And went crazy and wild
At a young age
I figured out society
If you have any flaws
You should never let them see
But I was no where near perfect
I wasn't a robot
I was just a little kid
I guess sometimes they forgot
When I became too much to handle
They'd just pawn me away
Give me to another family
Where hopefully I'd stay