Who would have thought that in this world filled with people I could be filling so alone.

All alone in my memory of the past crashing down on me like the 2 planes that hit the twin towers.

Who would have thought that I would be scared to go inside that house

Who could have known that I was broken on the inside while looking whole on the outside.

Just because its not seen on the outside don't mean I'm not screaming on the inside!

Could you have known while you were in the next room that I was being tormented by your friend over and over again.

Being so small feeling so wrong you never knew.. are did you and just keep quite not wanting to tell not wanting to get anyone caught.

Do you know how long I have been running, running from this and running from that.

Don't you know that I'm so tired of running now you got me running from myself.

Cant you tell that for years I have tired to erase the hurt the confusion the anger and the pain that is boiling inside me.

Someone like me wants love needs love is desperate for love.. but yet scared of love scared of this emotion that is taken to lightly by so many.

Have I ever experienced love maybe it was the fact that you couldn't give me up for adoption even though you tired, maybe it was coming back for me when you left me at a store so young not knowing were to go, maybe this has all been love maybe what you did to me was showing me that you too did indeed love me....

To want something so bad but not know what it is, is scary to say the least.

Maybe I did deserve everything I got because I was different then everyone else...

who knows, who will tell, who will save me ?!?!

who would have thought that behind my ever lasting smile was a broken girl?

who would have thought that I could feel so alone.