Promises broken

Tears showing

Eyes watching

But my mouth

Is smiling

Why am I so happy?

Did just go crazy?

Friends tearing at me

And am I really happy?

Or perhaps they’ve

Turned me crazy.

Stabbed in the back

Even in the front

But how could I let it

Happen so many times?

Why don’t I confront

Them?

Or even try?

Because even I

Don’t know what do.

Making friends

Watching that first

Sly smile

Watching your

Every move

And still I’m in denial

This person wouldn’t hurt me

But, of course, I couldn’t see

The truth right in front of me

Even if I have known

This friend for one hundred years

Nothing can atone

For what, made even me

Cry silent tears

And I still let it happen

Didn’t matter if you

Stabbed with a knife or a pen

What matters is

What you could but didn’t do.

You could have saved me

The one I trusted

You could have helped me up,

Instead of departed

Being that it happened so many times

You’d say I wouldn’t let it happen anymore

You’d say I could avoid the betrayal’s confines

You could say I was immune to what was in store

But time and time

Again

Each time my

Heart breaks a little more

Along with the whole

Of my body, mind,

And soul

My friends?

I wonder

How many I

Truly have.

Haw many can I trust?

How many have the heart

That I lust?

I myself being

A decent but

Certainly not the best

Friend one

Can have

Why do I say this?

Why do I think this way?

What is this girl doing?

What is this girl thinking?

All questions you may ask

But none may be answered

The same with betrayal

You may call

And call

And call

And yell

And scream

And cry

For help

But no one answers.

But in every lucky blue moon

You may find one,

One bright shining star

That will help you up.

Cautious at first

But heartwarming all

The same.

True friends would know

You front and back

Back and front.

But how many of your

Friends actually do?

Alright,

I’m being selfish

But how would you

Feel

After fifteen years of

High hopes

And steep slopes

To fall from

What you say may

Be true or not

But I will always

Give everyone just

Their chance

They deserve

At least that

Friends

Liars

Friends

Backstabbers

Friends

Users

Friends

Who can tell?

I can.

Selena