What did I see?

Why’d it have to be me?

Am I so small as a bee?

But I’m still dangerous you see!

Was I in love?

I think not

Delusioned

So far from the truth

Tricked

Ultimately lied to

It was definitely not what I sought.

So,

Push came to shove

And now I see it wasn’t love

Wallowing in darkness

Swallowing sadness

Watching happiness

What is there to do?

Help me out of here soon.

Where is the light?

It’s got to be somewhere

At least a little bright

Is somebody kind enough to share.

And all the while

I will devise

A little smile

Just a disguise

No one saw through

Disappointed

Distraught

Why did I try?

I’m just telling myself a lie

I thought someone cared

But I guess compared

To you

There’s nothing I can do.

Here I lie

In little pieces

Somebody save me

I need love,

Real love

Something that doesn’t

Go from push to shove

Is it really that tough?

My family

Don’t even really

See anything

In me

My friends

So many times

Stabbed in the back

Always stayed with

Them

That’s how much I loved

Them

Always helped them up

But with a second knife

With another sharp strike

They forgot me

And left me down

But they DID know

And still they didn’t utter a sound.

There’s only so much

I can handle by myself

So why cut

Through my life

So who can I trust?

I know one day

That I must

But would the feeling stay?

I need love

Real love

Someone to depend on

A shoulder to cry on

Lips to kiss

Someone to miss

Somebody to think about

My constant in AND out.

A body to hug

Somebody to love

Somebody to love

Tired of being independent

Tired of being tough

My trust was broken

Many many times

So my walls tend

To be refined

Someone penetrate

Someone break through

Please don’t be too late

I wanna be loved too

I come off as mean

I come off as crazy

Is that how I seem?

Is that your reality?

Because then I’m sorry

I guess my real me

Doesn’t come out for everyone to see

Because through the years

Those broken drowning years,

People used and buried that me

So if you seek

The real me

I’m telling you

I’m sorry

And I really wish you the best of luck.

I’m sorry

Are my defenses are too

Polished

Yeah at some point

I too wished

That it wasn’t so

Finished

But me?

I’m no fairy

I myself will soon be

Diminished

Can’t you see?

So I beg

Yes I plead

Hold my hand

And lead

Don’t fall through my fingers like sand

Somebody come take me for keeps.

So my questions is

Love

Who will find it?

Who will lose it?

Who will forget it?

Who will cherish and keep it?

Who can give it?

Come here and sit, listen, and see.

If things don’t turn to be push or shove

Is there eternal love?

Come answer me

Can you see?

Yeah I need love.

Man this is tough.

Selena