I must be broken, it has been close to three years and im still without someone in my life.

I had plans for this upcomming weekend to go see a movie with three friends (two of which are married ) but the one friend changed her mind saying that she doesnt have butterflies, and now its just us three (which im still looking forward to meeting them ) but i feel like there must be something terribly wrong with me.

So yea that kinda jabbed a stick into an old wound  and twisted it , i cant express the emotions im currently feeling at the moment , but reest assured i havent felt this bad in almost 3 years . :(

I told her it was ok no problem but that was kind of a lie

well I dont wish to be anyone's second choice and i refuse to be .

So the only thing that i can figure is i must be broken and unfixable.