Good For A Change

I miss you like a lot,
But will things ever get better for you?
Will you ever change like you said you would?
Or is this all another lie?
I'm confused so much with what has happened,
I know in my heart you'll always be my mother,
But that doesn't mean that I know you will straighten up,
And actually be the mom your suppose to be,
For sixteen years now,
You have lied and said you would fix things.
That you had fix things but if that is true,
Then why aren't you here?
Why aren't you here being the mom you're suppose to be?
You say things are different now,
And I know that because I'm happily not worrying about you,
I know you're okay where you're at,
I know everything will possibly get better,
But before I can believe it,
You should know me by now,
I have to be able to see it,
And I haven't sen you for a while now,
I miss you like crazy,
But I'm also not trying let you over worry me either,
But it seems that is what's happening,
I maybe confused,
But I'm not so confused to know things are actually good for a change..