Hurt Me Even More

Maybe it was too good to be true,
Maybe I should just move on with my life,
And forget about you,
But thats so hard to do,
When I love you so much,
You made me the happiest,
And now no words are ever spoken,
I don't see how I can fix this by myself,
And yet I'm falling more apart without you,
But I don't think you see that,
I don't think you were happy with me,
I am sorry that I ruined this for us,
And everything that was wrong,
Was because of me,
Not you,
I really don't know what to do without you,
But how can I still be with you,
When you no longer want it,
How can I be happy without you,
I don't that I can do this anymore,
Because all I'm doing is crying more and more,
And these tears are because I lost the one person,
Who ever made me as happy as I could ever be,
Then I started something dangerous,
And it not only hurt me but others too,
It felt good too loose some that depression,
But now I have eight scars on my arm,
And they won't go away,
I didn't do this because of you,
I did this because of me and what I caused,
I did it to  feel something again,
Yet now all I ever feel is hurt,
Or nothing at all,
So I'm giving up on trying to be happy,
Because everything I try to do,
Just seems to hurt me even more.