What do I do?

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What do I do?

I am back where I once was
Pining for different guys
And changing my mind like the hours of the day

We had a heart to heart
Agreeing with what I had to say
But then I confessed my feelings...again
With nothing to put my mind at ease with his silence

I knew he wouldn't feel that way again
But I was too hung up to get no response.
It hurt - stinging like an opened wound
I was starting to get confidence from an influential friend

Talking about my endless feeling, sunk me back to before
I told myself I wouldn't cry
And I didn't but felt the tears choking me

I reminisced on our incomplete relationship
Thinking about
what could have been
But what could have been wasn't even possible

He fooled with my attachment
And crushed me each time with an iron fist
He always goes back to her, this I know
But still, I can't stop loving him

Though he loves another, I do too
There.  I confessed it: I love two


I don't know if I love one more
Most likely that is the case
I don't know what to do
I want them both in my life
But I don't want to love them at the same time
What do I do?

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StandingBear commented on What do I do?

03-17-2014

Such a truthfully honest write... take time to know them.

In science one tries to tell people, in such a way as to be understood by everyone, something that no one ever knew before. But in poetry, it's the exact opposite.

Franz Kafka (1883-1924) Czech writer.

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