Forever in Debt to Loneliness


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    Forever in Debt to Loneliness

    I am forever in debt to loneliness
    It has made me what I am
    And what I am eternally becoming
    It has lead me here,
    Wherever here is
    It has given me insight and intuition
    Cold Brutal Logic
    It has opened a door within my mind,
    That never could have existed without it
    I am forever in debt to loneliness

    I was utterly alone for an eternity
    And in my loneliness
    I watched time stand still
    Like a single breath motionless
    in suspended animation
    I sat thinking for Aeons
    Reflecting on reality, Truth,
    and on the beauty of limitless possibility

    In my loneliness
    I was free from contentment
    I was free from limitations
    I was free from desire
    I was free from pestilent emotions
    I felt nothing
    My loneliness was the closest I had ever come
    To experiencing death
    And when I had lost everything
    Only then was I free to do anything
    And as Everything was gone from me
    My consciousness narrowed sharply from pain into a point
    Piercing space and time
    Like a wormhole materializing within my mind
    Crossing over to some other vastly distant side

    From my loneliness came an intellectual subconscious change
    From my loneliness came a deep wordless understanding
    Of things for which I could not explain
    In my loneliness I sat here precariously
    Half within the world of the living
    And half within the world beyond imagination
    I was from what I was not
    My beginning stemmed from my end
    In loneliness and sadness
    I perpetually became a fraction less
    Dividing and dividing
    Into the deepest and darkest
    Hyper-microscopic component of matter
    Beyond nothing, decaying, emerging detached
    From the very fabric of space
    Separate from formulation
    Separate from chaos
    Separate from all things
    And There I pondered the sights of existence below me
    And there I remain even now
    Forever in debt to loneliness

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    inkmaster commented on Forever in Debt to Loneliness


    Deep thought cool title.................................................inkmaster

    DESIRE2INSPIRE commented on Forever in Debt to Loneliness


    WOW!!! Thats powerful and gripping. You write with such intensity and rage. You are never peace within and learn to love who you are. :) accentuate the positive not the negative

    The true philosopher and the true poet are one, and a beauty, which is truth, and a truth, which is beauty, is the aim of both.

    Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

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