Forever in Debt to Loneliness

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    Forever in Debt to Loneliness

    I am forever in debt to loneliness
    It has made me what I am
    And what I am eternally becoming
    It has lead me here,
    Wherever here is
    It has given me insight and intuition
    Cold Brutal Logic
    It has opened a door within my mind,
    That never could have existed without it
    I am forever in debt to loneliness

    I was utterly alone for an eternity
    And in my loneliness
    I watched time stand still
    Like a single breath motionless
    in suspended animation
    I sat thinking for Aeons
    Reflecting on reality, Truth,
    and on the beauty of limitless possibility

    In my loneliness
    I was free from contentment
    I was free from limitations
    I was free from desire
    I was free from pestilent emotions
    I felt nothing
    My loneliness was the closest I had ever come
    To experiencing death
    And when I had lost everything
    Only then was I free to do anything
    And as Everything was gone from me
    My consciousness narrowed sharply from pain into a point
    Piercing space and time
    Like a wormhole materializing within my mind
    Crossing over to some other vastly distant side

    From my loneliness came an intellectual subconscious change
    From my loneliness came a deep wordless understanding
    Of things for which I could not explain
    In my loneliness I sat here precariously
    Half within the world of the living
    And half within the world beyond imagination
    I was from what I was not
    My beginning stemmed from my end
    In loneliness and sadness
    I perpetually became a fraction less
    Dividing and dividing
    Into the deepest and darkest
    Hyper-microscopic component of matter
    Beyond nothing, decaying, emerging detached
    From the very fabric of space
    Separate from formulation
    Separate from chaos
    Separate from all things
    And There I pondered the sights of existence below me
    And there I remain even now
    Forever in debt to loneliness

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    inkmaster commented on Forever in Debt to Loneliness

    11-26-2009

    Deep thought cool title.................................................inkmaster

    DESIRE2INSPIRE commented on Forever in Debt to Loneliness

    07-17-2009

    WOW!!! Thats powerful and gripping. You write with such intensity and rage. You are never alone....seek peace within and learn to love who you are. :) accentuate the positive not the negative

    The true philosopher and the true poet are one, and a beauty, which is truth, and a truth, which is beauty, is the aim of both.

    Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

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