I

Staring at the empty halls
trying to fill my numbing brain
with WHY and HOW.

Propping open the door
to let in a sliver of light;
a shimmer of reason.

Sweating, tired
so far from sleep.
For some, that's all they do.

I can't stop my head
but something familiar
is doing it for me.

A smile so sweet
across the walkway
reminds me of hardships shared.

Both bodies are broken.

Voices and tempers raise
I don't know what to say
and I don't really care,
because I don't have to.

Some will die trying.
Some will understand.
Some will walk away
in disgust and ashamed.

I can't look at myself
without these thoughts.
Everyone is correct in their minds.
I will not argue.

I can't use my valuable time
and just let my mind meander.
I will figure this out.
I will destroy the beast.


TJC
07/29/10