Smudged

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Smudged

When will this tearing go away?
It's always visible on my face.
Eyes black and smudged everyday.
Awaking with that salty taste.

What can I do?
Do I run away?
Do I end this life?
How can I stay?

I've tried to get better
and clean myself up.
Then I fall again
and wish he would help me up.

I'm smothered with fear.
If I cut, or slice myself
he still won't care.
He will only find someone else.

If I cry, or if I say anything
he will only give me lies,
false security.
Then he will recreate the smudges around my eyes.

He is the artist who decorates my moods.
He makes me want to tear out my heart.
Then makes me happy with simple I Love Yous.
Even with this pain, I still don't want to split apart.

I feel darker than ever
living in a deep hole.
No one can hear my frustrated cries
as they echoe through my heart and soul.

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Qualin commented on Smudged

08-03-2010

Youth is wasted on the young...you have too much going for you to let ONE person cause you to even shed one tear...no reason!!!! Be yourself untill that other part of you is found!!! You will know...there wont be any guessing,pain,crying,wondering...YOU WILL KNOW..May God Bless ...Qualin

BrittKun commented on Smudged

11-12-2009

OMG this is about your b-friend why deal with it tell him how you feel and if thats not good enough there someone out their for you that will love you for you that will always be thier for you . I have been in the darkness I have had the tears the cry of sorrow has filled my heart and I have wept for loss cause.

bluewolf commented on Smudged

10-27-2009

One may love, however when that love is of pain more than love it is no longer a relationship; but a bondage to fear, self loathing and loneliness. Happiness is not promised to us, yet we can certainly attempt to catch and hold onto that which comes our way. We ALL deserve to find love. If we do or not is up to us. Good poem.

CMarsh commented on Smudged

09-24-2009

Paige let no man or person ever keep you down or place a frown on your face. If he can't see your really beauty lies within your mind then it's time to start a new rhyme. Ever need a friend just send me a message and I will listen.

cliftondurant commented on Smudged

09-22-2009

keep on living life and believing and good thing will come a good job

The true philosopher and the true poet are one, and a beauty, which is truth, and a truth, which is beauty, is the aim of both.

Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

Paige’s Poems (12)

Title Comments
Title Comments
Boys and Creeps 1
What's yours 1
Happiness 5
Seasons 3
Awake 9
Smudged 7
Alone 8
Poet 9
Broken 8
These Words 7
You 7
Left Traces 6