The edge of Darkness

The choice is mine

I want to try

To take a drug

And get chemically high

It’s my body

And it’s my life

It won’t hurt my kids

And it won’t hurt my wife

My mom and my dad

They never will know

They don’t understand

They’re old and there slow

It will open my mind

Cares of the world I can leave

I say “just this once”

Rolling up my sleeve

Reality I abandon

Leaving time and space

I drift through life

It’s drugs I embrace

I made my choice

But no longer can I choose

My life is now controlled

By drugs, and by booze

Just to feel normal

I am forced to use

And if I can’t find a score

I have to do booze

Our family now broken

My children’s development impaired

I know now that they wish

Their father could have cared

At school they get teased

And rejected by peers

Treated so dreadful

That they’re brought to tears

I’ve created darkness

Of which I am the center

When I made the choice to use

The darkness I did enter

The closer to me

The darker your life

Those that I loved

My kids and my wife

On darkness edge

In the circle of blame

My relatives

Living with shame

I’ve forever been selfish

Always thinking of me

Never considering consequences

Are what they would be

The family has suffered

I’ve caused pain and caused stress

Because of my choices

It’s a financial mess

My life is a waste

That’s how it will be

Because my biggest problem

Is being addicted to me