What they tried to teach me and what I am trying to unlearn.

No one is truthful
No one is consistent
No one will ever stay with me
No one will ever really love me
No one thinks I am worth it
No one cares what I feel or think
No one believes in me or has faith in me
No one is genuine
No one remembers me
No one misses me
No one is faithful
no one wants to spend time with me
everyone wants something
everyone will use me
everyone will cheat
everyone lies
everyone thinks I don’t do anything right
I will never be first, second or fifteenth
I am optional
I am a novelty
I am not special
I am not pretty let alone beautiful
That no matter how kind or unconditional I am I will get kicked and berated
My feelings don’t matter
My opinions don’t matter
Because I am naïve I am stupid and ‘won’t know better’
It’s all my fault
All that I say and feel can and will be used against me.
People are conditional
Trust is a just a 5 letter word