ABSENT CONVICTION :: cheronld :: Original Poetry

ABSENT CONVICTION

Just ask why:

Do you even know what that question really means?

why me lord...what have I done to warrant such pain and remain unclean

Why do you protect those that continue down the wrong path

Selling drugs n counting money off death…and still not know 5th-grade math ?!

Sitting alone in the dark…questioning my sanity through the eyes of zealots

The cop out so common…it shares lies and dreams built on pallets

I swear I’m somebody dying…but I just can’t figure out who

The little girl inside me crying…uncaring...and without a clue

Tell me…who do I have to be…in order to pass this test

I’m tired of collapsing in torment…my soul...now a hornet’s nest

They can sit in church on Sunday…go home…hit a blunt and fly ?!

I refuse to fake my belief…sitting there…just to get by

My sanity won’t permit the utter strength… in such a lie

What‘s empty in me…can’t be filled with the flower of words

Bible thumping…preachers praying…still molesting boy’s n girls ?!

My ache is much deeper than the sins that put it there

No room left to hide...or escape the hope…buried in despair

My home barren except for an echo…valiantly shouldering the blame

I‘m ready to give in…as the devil’s hand …resembles the same

My mirror reflects the opposite side of me…forever casting a shadow on my reality

My steps falter in quicksand…swallowing what’s left, in its entirety

This crazy maze of life…has to have an out

There is way too much ignorance…proudly floating about

"God is trying to tell you something"…the choir loudly sings

The congregation mimics…with their minds on other things

Watching the sinners and co-signers…stomping Amen in spiritual release…PLEASE

I choose to be ME and selfish…following my very own path, to peace

No apologies entertain my truths…too honest or too proud

I find I Have no stomach left…for the insanity…sweltering in the crowd

© C. Lyght 2011

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cheronld commented on ABSENT CONVICTION 04-17-2012: Wakeitha commented on Absent Conviction 05-12-2011............................................... I like the poem and it is truth alot of people are fake. That is with it took me along time to give life to Christ Jesus because I didn't want to be a fake. See life is like that it seems like nothing happening but know one really understand the decision the good lord make. They not getting away the will suffer and he will bring the out. But to make a long story short in the bible god always use someone who been through something in life inorder to let his light shine through them.He writing you have a gift and let God direct your path to help somebody ele through. God bless; Reply to Comment

cheronld 04/17/2012: cheronld 05/13/2011.......................................... Thank you so much for your words...Cher

cheronld commented on ABSENT CONVICTION 04-17-2012: MootPoint commented on Absent Conviction 04-26-2011................................................. Hey sweetie, welcome back. Yes, we all have doubt now and then. It can be a great turmoil. We see people who are supposed to be godly, and they do very sinful things. It is part of the human condition. It is so powerful, God came down and gave his life. Gave His Live for you and me. Hang in there kid. Let it all flow out in poetry. You have the longing in your heart. I can see it. Pray for the gift of faith. I do. This site, like our lives, will not be here forever. Take care, Al; Reply to Comment

cheronld 04/17/2012: cheronld 04/27/2011........................................................................ Thanks for the warm welcome back my friend...its been awhile, but its nice to find you still here...this write came from a place of anger and disbelief....like you said..."We see people who are supposed to be godly, and they do very sinful things"...just this past weekend watching people scramble for outfits for church...and mind you...they haven't been to church since the last easter...or what I like to call..."the Easter parade of hypocrisy"...some call them "Sunday Christians...weekday Villains"...either way...the irony is truly not lost on me...thanks so much for your kind words and sharig your thoughts with me...it is so appreciated...Cher

cheronld commented on ABSENT CONVICTION 04-17-2012: BlackButterfly1 commented on Absent Conviction 04-30-2011........................ But don't you have to fight? The opposite of that is equivalent to giving up. Then who do we become? Just like those we condemn. It's better to see and do what is right for us than to criticize and be just like the rest. This was my struggle for a long time until I realized that I can't worry about them but instead do what I know is right inside of self. I get it. I understand! You do too.... that awareness is what separates you from the rest. Keep writing sis. That's where we often find our release.; Reply to Comment

cheronld 04/17/2012: cheronld 05/01/2011................................................................... Thanks so much my friend....I knew you would get this one personally....I stopped writing for awhile and thought to stop all together...but it is very theraputic...I have yet to touch on feelings still buried inside and purposely I am trying to stay away from it....I'm scared to open that door for the fear of not being able to control or close it....its a slow boogey...but...at least I am writing something....thanks for your kind words...Cher

raziel69 commented on ABSENT CONVICTION 12-20-2011: DAAAAMMNNN!!! Cher, that was amazing! I loved it, every word. You make us all see it the way you do, which in fact i share those same feelings. This is above a 10, awesome write, my friend...Raz; Reply to Comment

cheronld 12/20/2011: Thanks so much Raz....lol....you made me smile and that's always a plus....its nice to know that this can relate to just more than me....take care my friend and enjoy the upcoming holiday.....Cher

TREVON commented on ABSENT CONVICTION 12-06-2011: There is always faith in the faints beam of light.; Reply to Comment

cheronld 12/14/2011: It's that same faith however that determines whether you see that light or not....there first has to be a solid foundation to hold onto....thank you for your words and time....Cher

TREVON 12/14/2011: The Lord is my Rock and foundation.

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