you had no idea

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  • hannahxP
  • the greatest litterary work of my life, will be the last i ever wright.

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we have addictions and letting go of those addictions is the hardest thing you will ever do but once you look back you will relies that it was all just a smokescreen a ridiculous hoax from the world to keep happiness from your eyes.

you had no idea

 

cutting wasn’t just a problem
it was a parasite

bleeding was my addiction
steal was my self-medication

blades made the crazy’s run
slices silenced the demons
        silenced the screaming
 scorched away my pain

fighting fire with fire

pain to realize pain

cuts to heal bruises

brutality towards myself to keep me civil for you

letting them in to keep them out

relying on metal to rely on me

let want take over need

taking from myself to give to me

Playing a game to lose myself

Trying to shake them off when  I really didn’t want to

Evidence left hidden tucked away

Hiding from help

Leaving me lost in the oxymoron that i am.

Taking to leave me wanting

Keeping quiet to keep hazardous

Taking steps only to fall back

taking over my life

Lost

So lost

The need still haunts me

Once a mutilator

Always a mutilator

But I left all of that behind

Left my addictions to get lost in everlasting love.

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A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness. It finds the thought and the thought finds the words.

Robert Frost (1875-1963) American Poet.

hannahxP’s Poems (50)

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Don't Be Like Me 1
going under 0
HOMESICK 1
It’s a corporation 1
curb stomp 2
HONEST EYES 0
texas ate dj 2
swift kick to the face, make it a double 0
lost cause 0
scram 0
trust is tricky 1
they fight 0
cosmic:rock bottom 0
playing on heartstrings 0
i love... 2
bonfire! :p 0
Long story, short poem 1
Word Play 3
Confused much 1
pain to pain 1
Hush-a-bye Heart 1
get some sleep 0
project4:that type of strong 0
Project3:Insi
gnificant [Sonnet?]
0
Project2, The ending 0
Project1, Moods of Blue 1
Nothing but you 2
heaven,hell,k
wik-stop?
0
am i dying? 1
can to 0
your eyes 0
where fear goes 0
trapped 0
you had no idea 0
Sight 1
my heart, the tick tock time bomb 0
thank you 0
the bloody envelope 0
Sunrise in co 0
Secrets 0
I can't Believe it 1
that dream where I died 0
the sea 2
Fule 1
that eternal internal fire 1
missing you 1
stuck 0
glittercovere
dmemories
0
tears still fall 1
Denial 1