Troubador’s Profile

I am a 46 year old man who was made a widower in 2006. I have worked as a professional poetry editor for 2 years. Prior to that I was going to college studying to be a doctor but the money ran out and so did my persistance. I am a retired professional chef. I have cooked for rock stars and presidents. I even have executive clearance ( the government gave it to me when I cooked for President Ronald Reagan). Pretty cool huh? I have been a published poet for myriad years and I will continue to write. I have had a rather difficult life, I had found my father's dead body when I was 16 was thrown into the system, presumed insane was sent to the state nuthole got a fiancee'. She contracted cancer and died 3 years pass I get married. My life was bliss for 3 years then she dies in my arms for all intents and purposes. I have been living a life of boredom ever since. Loss of interest in everything. Sex is still a good time however it tends to bore me.. I have been through alot in my 46 almost 47 years I have experianced death first hand when I was 15 years old. Walking into my fathers bedroom to find him laying stark naked on his bed with a ribbon of vomit down his chest. Then being a high dollar criminal. Then getting my ass run over y a car and left for dead. Having to learn how to do basic things all over again it was all easy until I had to learn to walk all over again. Now I live off a disability payment from social security(what a drag). But I try to move forward. It is rather difficult to say the least. People look at me as if I am a 100 percent capable ofr working human being which is not the case I assure you