broken

I'm a mother of three
Just trying to hang onto a part of me
Wanting to live
Always doing the give
Never the take
Can't catch a break
Always dreams
Reality is what it is it seems
Alone doing this dance
Needing a chance
But it never comes
Tears n sorrow becomes
Ready to give in
Always hiding within
Only creating bad luck
Starting to not give a fuck
No one seems to give a shit
One way or the other about it
So why should I
N why try, just to cry
Another hard shell
Faking all is well
Seems to be an everyday
Only possible way
Everyday apart of me I lose
Another mistake I choose
Guess I like the gloom
To loom
So I make it stay
Everything else I push away
Completely losing me
Becoming just a mom of three
With no other definition
Or connection
Tired of putting me on hold
My life is cold
Mixed emotions swarm
My life, once warm
Now is ice
How nice?
Nevermind
It's not so kind
So I'll remain unspoken
N completely broken