taking my turn

For the past twenty nine years
And all my wasted tears
I haven't really gotten to live
Only been half alive
So in twenty four days
Making thirty birthdays
It's time to let it all go
Create a life to show and grow
Always been living in yesterday
Needing to start really living today
Tired of always being mad
And sad cause of the life I've had
Letting all them memories burn
Finally gonna take my turn
To be me, live for me
My past haunted everything I'd see
Don't wanna be thirty
Mad, the world did me dirty
In all reality, I did it to myself
Time to clear that shelf
Instead of letting my world vanish
And letting my dreams tarnish
It's time to see the light
And live my life right
Tired of just sliding
And simply hiding
This was definitely not my thirty year plan
Now it's time to do what I can
I can't change my history
But I can achieve future glory
Just watching everyone pair up
And my vision is a half empty cup
Leaving me living dull
Needing to see my cup half full
And with will
My cup can fill
Only if I start living now
Just gotta do it some-how
I can't do this another thirty years again
My life needs to begin