defying gravity, poem 1

There was a gravity,
One that always kept me coming back to that place
The gravity of me wanting to come out on top,
Best of the best
The gravity of wanting to achieve
The goals I'd set.
So I came each day and worked hard
But soon I realized
That I was trying and failing to reach my goals,
Or maybe had done all I could there and had to move on
If it was that I was failing to achieve my goals,
I began to dread the gravity pulling me back to my "Earth"
Making rockets of excuses so that I could escape said gravity
Just for one day
My nights were haunted with tears
Before I realize that the gravity no longer
Just keeps me from floating away,
It now knocks me off my feet each time I try to take a step
So now I defy this gravity and end it's pull over me
Once and for all
Every unachieved goal I left behind
Felt like a broken promise and brought my heart to tears
Even in places where I did come out on top
And had simply done everything there was to do,
Had the unachieved goals I must leave behind in my search for
A new "Home"
When finally I find another place,
I am filled with the hope for new goals,
The hope that this gravity will be more bearable,
And the hope that maybe this time, I'll float to the top,
And Defy Gravity without the pain