Inspiration

looking for some inspiration, my mind draws a blank,
feeling so empty, so emotionless to be frank.
i have the love of God inside me
so how could this be?
i'm not yet at that place he needs me to be,
emotionally, mentally, spiritually,
but i'll get there if i have to run, walk, crawl,
this time i'm giving it my all.
allowing him to break down these walls.
so even if i fall,
i'm gonna get back up and fight,
until i get it right.
i'm finding my inspiration, i'm looking inside,
seeking all the emotions i seem to hide.
gaining the consciousness of myself once more,
slowly opening this shut door,
blossoming like a flower into this new me,
no longer am i in shackles,
my God, i'm free!!!!