I’m trying to get over my past
but I’m moving on way to fast
I’m causing myself more pain
feeling all but sain
nothing I do feels right
have I lost all my fight

i regret choices I’ve made
but the memories won’t seem to fade
sometimes it’s hard for me to breathe
and I want nothing but to leave
but I can’t escape

I feel the ground beneath shake
everything I once knew collapsed
leaving me feeling trapped
in my own mistakes

they either make or break me
and now that’s what I see
I realize
all the times I’ve tried not to cry
all those times i lied
saying i was perfectly fine
is the only thing standing in my way

blocks the door to each and every day 
 every choice I make from this moment
I know I chose it, knowing the purpose
my past wasn’t worthless
but my future will be if I don’t take time
to slowly become unblind
notice what really matters
even as my heart shatters