I miss him so much

I miss him touch

I miss his voice

But It was my choice..

I left him, But listen

I didn’t want to

My fool of a mother made me

I wish I could make him see

I didn’t mean to break his heart

Please see that this tore me apart

Nothing now is the same

When I hear his name

I feel so much pain

I feel cold and alone

I just want to fold up into a little ball

I want to fall into a big dark whole

Fill it with hot black Cole and set it on fire

While I call myself a lier..

I told myself I wouldn’t leave him

Especially if my mom didn’t get the clue

That we were meant to be

I told myself I would make her see..

I lied.. Now I want to die

Im not the same girl I was when I was with him

And I will never be

I miss him so damn much

I miss his touch

I miss his voice.

But it was my choice..

Now I wont hear him say

The 3 words he said everyday..

I love you

He loved me, I could tell

But now how could he

After I ruined what we had

I ruined our dreams

I ruined our future

I ruined both of our lives..