I held a secret deep within
That never should have been
Childhood wasn't the best of times
I was the victim of many crimes.
So afraid to tell another
What happened that fearful summer.
I went on like I was fine
But I was only nine,
The pain was too much
I couldn't stand another's touch
Even by those I loved
Because of the man I now feared.
Surely they had to come out sometime
And that they did five years down the line
When I couldn't sleep
And quiet was hard to keep.
As I sat in the family room
With tears showing my deepest gloom.
He asked what was the matter,
Why I stirred up so much clatter.
I hesitated, wouldn't tell him why I wept
He knew something was wrong, for days I hadn't slept
Finally I told him, why I was such a mess
In him I'd always confide, I felt I could confess.
For he was my brother, my best and truest friend
He wanted to protect me, until the very end.
But the story that I spoke of
Was far worse than he expected.
He told me to tell my mother,
But I couldn't bare the bother
Finally he said that I better tell
'Cause if I didn't, he would, so I might as well
So I tried to tell her of how it began,
My fear of all men, and why I always ran.
But that I couldn't do
It was too hard, but that I already knew
So I got a pen and paper and wrote it all down
I handed it to her, she hugged away my frown
She didn't stop till every word was read,
She too now hated Ed