Perpetual Healing

Trapped in a nightmare
constant reminders of my horror surround me
in  a sound, in a smell, in a sight
they taunt me

I close my eyes off from life
Tears coat my face,
the amniotic fluid covers the unborn child,
yet it hurts too much to cry
falling silently down my check
my tears know no innocence
my childhood robbed away,
my laughter ripped apart from me,
life torn from me
used and discarded
the aborted baby in a garbage can
all that is left is pain

I struggle for breath, staring blankly
only seeing my nightmare
rolling in front of me, a rolling horror flick
memories I try to forget
but the pain tears me apart,
the cold metal forcepts of the abortionist
do these cries go unheard?
I wonder, where is the guilt
stained red, do I wear it on my face
the father of lies clears the father's conscience
my anger burns inside
the saline poisoning a fetus in it's mother's womb
just as it burns the unborn
anger poisons my heart with it's burning pain

How can I cope through this loss
feeling like murder while I long for life
My doubt closes over me
the lid of a garbage can
sealing my fate
over the bodies of the forgotten newborns
to be thrown out and forgotten
discarded like yesterdays news
I bundle up against the cold
a loved child, on it's way to school in the morning
sent out into the cold world
carrying inside this burdon of pain