I reveal to you, my innermost workings

My hopes, my fears, my revelations

I tell you the way that life suprises me

the way it sometimes lets me down

I feel that words have served me well

but when I try to tell you how I feel

These words seem lost on you

I hear you pause and then explain to me

what you think I mean

It sounds like another language I was speaking

A language you could not translate

My heart hurts and I feel lonely

I feel seperated from you by some unseen force

I cannot seem to penetrate

I feel the distance between us

and when I re-explain to you

what I meant, I feel a kind of indifference

my feelings are hurt and I am not sure

what to say

how could someone I love be so far away

I read you a poem that was meant for you

your face like stone

I explain it and then feel more alone

I die inside and revive myself

your voice holds the sound of aggravation

while my heart feels such elevation

are you meant to be my challenge or my curse

I feel a mixture of sadness and hope

should I give up or learn to cope

should I try to thaw the ice around your heart

or realize we are better off apart

my heart cracks and silently

I hold back tears and pray for you and me

KEP 8/1/09