what is it that makes the heart beat faster

that makes one burn like fire for one and

not another.

why when all reason and common sense

tells us we should love, we don't

Please make sense of this for me.

what is it that makes one ache for me

and another act like they don't care

I am the same person inside and out

nothing changes in me as I stand before

them.

yet one sees me and is filled with passion

admiration, respect

the other seems unimpressed

both say they love me

one shows affection as do I

one holds interesting conversations

and enjoys talking, as do I

One loves to make love

anytime, anywhere, as do I

the dynamics between us

seem to flow so easily

The other does not show affection

he says thats just his way

he really does not like to conversate

we rarely make love

and I feel an emptiness between us

My love is conflicted

I feel so much for the man that

hides himself away

like a child playing hide and seek

He hides his true feelings from me

perhaps he knows no better

however I am lost and feeling

isolated from my true self

a life void of passion and affection

is like living a lie

but something holds me here

and wont let me let go of

the man that hides.