What can I do to get stronger?

Why do I feel so weak?

I’ve gotten ride of those who are weak

I have become a loner again

Never again distracted

By the those that I called friend

Turned off course by their weaknesses

I had to lose the traits I called me

My compassion for others

My love for all animals

Finally my passive nature

I’m viewed as an evil person to many

When I used to give off a vibe of peace

My heart feels warped from four years distortion

The change was bitterly cold

Like a brutal winter,

It froze me to my soul

My tormentor’s actions

Burned pain into my bone

And the sturdy happy mental spirit I used to have

Will never come back to see the light of day

The sense of honor I used to have

Is blinded by the shadows

disguising my intentions

The brave heart I was known for

Starts to feel no compassion

Naturally I feel scared

Confused at the nature of these traits

Were they stem from unknown

Like a weed in a field of roses

They just appear

To feed of the happiness of the others

And yet they are still here..

Supporting me

Loving me

Showing me that regardless of my nature

They will always show their compassion

To love someone...who doesnt love himself

Why they give me the hug of life

I will never know

But I feel at odds with my soul

Like a rose is trying to bloom

The only thing stopping it...is myself