I looked into the crystalline pool of uncertainty,

There reflected was a truth,

A stark moment of absolute clarity,

That I was not enough for you.

No matter the way I twisted and turned,

You were determined to be dissatisfied.

I tried to stand beneath you and

Want the things you did.

You looked at me and told me,

To break open a crate of individuality,

I did, I grew, I blossomed, I flew,

Then you told me, you wished I were more like you.

I sat in adulation, quiet contemplation,

Daring not to breathe a word,

When I did not speak, you took not a care,

Only when I whispered your name,

Did you turn and stare.

In your eyes I saw my fate,

Lain aside in boredom and hate,

I have wasted the years, you meant for another,

Yet you waited, at my side,

Waited to discover,

Your real better other.

Forgive me my sins,

I only ever tried,

To be the best I could,

Wondering when striving,

Would cease to be enough.