In My Needing

In my needing I found myself alone
Standing firmly on cracking ice
Feeling the pressures of my soul
Feeling the strain of sacrifice

And when the drowning came too near
I felt I had finally lost
There was nothing left worth fighting for
It is no longer worth the cost

I cried in my own self pity
With nothing worth caring about
get up and fight for every breath
don't live such a life... in doubt

And though these things remained
the sun was finally breaking slowly through
I could finally smile to myself again
And then I would think of you

A sudden new feeling with a longing
And it swells such a sullen tear
A feeling that I want to touch you
And to bring you near

I stood silently watching your sunshine
Trying to know what was real
Holding the threads as you leave me away
Grasping for what I could feel.

-Spider