As I look in the mirror, I can see something reflecting,

But it wasn't at all what I'd hoped or was expecting,

I see a dark image but I can't make it out very clear,

It seems all blurry which could be from all of the beer,

I stare vigorously into the one sided piece of glass,

Saying stupid, stupid like it's going to change the past

It isn't me

That's not who I wanted to be

I lost you long ago and now you standing here with me

I couldn't see

But now my heart is free

And I look behind me knowing it was just a memory

You're my destiny

I try to pull myself together but I'm engulfed in anger,

As I look in the mirror I feel like I'm looking at a stranger,

Why must you do these things and you always give in,

Why have you put yourself in this ridiculous position again,

My knees are weak as my hands tremble on the counter top,

Screaming inside my head at the top of my lungs to stop,

It isn't me

That's not who I wanted to be

I lost you long ago and now you standing here with me

I couldn't see

But now my heart is free

And I look behind me knowing it was just a memory

You're my destiny

I heed my own advice and go sit at the foot of the bed,

Wiping my eyes and trying to rub the pain out of my head,

I take a deep breathe in hopes of clearing my busy mind,

But all the while wondering what it is I'm trying to find,

I walk back to the mirror not knowing what it is I will see,

My eyes are closed but when I open them I hope it is me.

02/27/11