Am I a Lover or a Puppet?

(spoken)
(Am I a puppet or a lover?
Am I weaker than another?
Who can say what I can or can't do?
Why should I bother obeying you?
What gives you any right,
To take my will to fight?)

Dramatic, traumatic
You are killing my mind
Psychotic, robotic
You are breaking my will

You monster, you corrupted me
I was not what I had meant to be
You twisted all that I was
You brought down my world for a thrill

This wasn't supposed to go this way
But there's little that I could say
It's not like I wasn't warned

Bereaving, deceiving
You are killing my soul
Uncaring, ensnaring
You are breaking my heart

What were you trying to do?
Did you think I'd be happily abused by you?
I couldn't stand the control you held
It was never gonna be okay

This wasn't supposed to go this way
But there's little that I could say
It's not like I wasn't warned

Controlling, cajoling
You are killing my self
Abusing, confusing,
You are breaking me

This wasn't supposed to go this way
(they said this would happen)
But there's little that I could say
(they told me what you are)
It's not like I wasn't warned
(they said that I should run)

This wasn't supposed to go this way
(I couldn't stand to hear it)
But there's little that I could say
(I couldn't handle the possibility)
It's not like I wasn't warned
(But they turned out to be right)