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My children are growing up, I seem to sleep more & more
I can barley bend to reach anything, let alone get off the floor
My mind is slippin, my mouth does too- can't always remember what I'm suppose to do
Years at being a mother, a daughter, sister & wife, has finally taken it's toll on my once but simple life
- School years, oldest of eight, job at sixteen, then off to graduate-- time to move out on my own
Many places to live, many with advice to give, before finding a place to call home.
Friends and parties that last all night- Having to pay bills though money is tight... A new job for better pay. Met a few men, lived life in sin
before I finally found Ray
We dated awhile, then married in '89... a baby born not far behind
Our little girl -- A whole new world... No sleep, No more, No rest
Between the dog and the baby, my husband, at times he's crazy --
I feel like it's some kind of test!!
Eighteen months go by -- time does fly, when you are having fun
I'm still learning and trying... diapers... still buying
-- Now I'm having a son!!
So cute & quiet, I could not deny it, - he has my fingers & toes & my eyes...
He has his daddy's hair, & temper is there... It shows whenever he cries
Just as his little life got it's start, there's a problem wrong with his tiny heart... at 6 months old..he has his heart operation
Stress and worry add to my frustration.. but in the end, all went well
He's now thirteen, nice and mean... most of his life has been hell
-- From medical conditions.. how he just won't listen,.behavior is a major concern. Don't want to do what his teachers' say to - & refuses to try to learn..
Sister and brother, mom, dad... we had each other till one day our family was torn apart. See, in "96 we were busted, by people we trusted.
Went to Prison with so much pain in my heart.
Almost three years in the joint I spent. Kids grew up -- as the time went
Finally together again once more. 1998.. we walked out the prison gate
With a new life, better than the one before.
-- We worked hard to get our kids back in our care
Lived in Grove, but soon moved from there. Returned to Bartlesville & Dewey instead --
Knowing it would be home for the years that lie ahead
Marrried almost seventeen years. Growing old is one of my fears
Kids in high school now, & seems like "time"... there's never enough
We know that we'll make it, so it's easier to take it as the hardest times hit pretty rough
Like any family we have our up's and downs and sometimes disagree --
But in all types of weather, we all stick together, the way God inteneded it to be.
The one thing that has carried us through, showed us the way in all that we do
That one big thing I am speaking of.............Though it may be little, or the word in the middle--
That one big thing..we had called "LOVE".

© Sheila May King © September, 2005 All Rights Reserved.

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