Falling and Hurting and yet...still Loving

When I start to feel that I’m not important to a person,
I take the initiative to stay away.
So when someone feels that I’m quite far,
it doesn’t mean that I intentionally left the person.
Maybe I just felt that the person doesn’t need me at all.

But still…

Thoughts of him keep on torturing my being.
The image of him brings chill on my spine.
His face, his kind words, the way he smiles,
and the way he makes me feel overwhelm me.

When he’s near I feel so clumsy.
When he talks to me I am so speechless.
When he smiles at me I just couldn’t breath.
When he says goodbye I feel a heavy feeling inside my chest.
Now it makes me think…is he torturing me??

He keeps on running inside my head.
He’s the image I see in my dreams.
He’s the reason I write silly hearts on my notebook.
And yet he’s the main reason I smile and cry a lot these days.

I couldn’t help but feel these weird things.
I feel so silly encountering them.
I feel excited, anxious, sad, and mad as well.
Please do tell me, am I going insane?

I’m trying to ignore these ridiculous feelings.
I want them to get out of my system.
I know that he doesn’t need me
and I don’t need him! End of story!
Sayonara! Adieu! Goodbye!

haiiii

If only words were that easy to speak;
if only wounds heal in a matter of seconds;
then maybe…

maybe...

just maybe...

falling won’t hurt like hell!

…and loving won’t sound stupid!