I have entered a new chapter of my life;
They call it "adulthood".
But at some point it gives me a hard time
To let go of my youth.

I still am not ready to embrace maturity.
It’s like I’m stuck between two different worlds;
And don’t know which way to go;
Or which one to choose.

Am I gonna stay
Or should I go away?
Should I enter the realm of reality?
Or ignore the calling of maturity?

Am I ready to grow ?
Am I ready to make a vow?
Or should I wait a little longer
Before I truly part from my childhood's innocence and laughter?

Life then was full of colors.
But what lies ahead
Is either black and white;
Or simply bloody red.

There were laughter and excitement.
But what lies ahead are tears and regrets.
Even challenges are always present.
Maybe this is what life truly meant.


I already am a grown up;
a grown up who wishes to be a little girl again.