My mind is being invaded,
troubling thoughts cascading.

One moment i'm calm,
Next comes sweaty palms.

A stigma of being crazy,
I think most psychiatrist are lazy.

I'm my own worst critic,
on my character i nit pick.

Alienated, frustrated, feeling alone,
I nag my partner to the bone.

Medication keeps me in a daze,
I keep telling myself it's just a phase.

Pressure in my head makes me wanna pass out,
I lost everything my kids, my dignity , and my clout.

People use this disorder to quiet my truth,
I've got problems piling up to the roof.

How do i explain what i'm going through ,
when no-one believes in you.

My character has been framed,
like i'm on a death sentence of constant shame.

My children have lost trust and respect for me,
They've been trained to only see the disease in me.

Is this a nightmare , i'm forever trapped in ,
or punishment for all my past sin ?

Why is my good karma on hold,
as if the bad is the only side to be told ?

Day after day drowning in my own self pity,
all of my darkest secrets announced to the city.

Forever doomed to stay at the same level,
this hole is too deep to dig out with a shovel.

An outcast amongst family and friends ,
on going tragedy , when will it end.

For forgiveness from love ones i've begged and plead,
always labeled the bad seed.