Confusion Or Love

I was so supposed to know That you really loved me so That those feelings where about grow I really messed up cause I didn't know I thought love was just a silly game Came out of it feeling quite the same Now your hurt and I am to blame You yelled at me and called me every dirty name With your emotions I had no regards Living in a house of playing cards Looking at the greener grass in other yards Looking like a real dumb ass Slipping and falling fast Screwing up something that could of last Ending up alone just like in the past When will I open my eyes to see That love can be a reality Till I do there will no one out there for me Oh hell I did again Created an ememy out of a friend Lost some one on whom I depend Here I am alone in the end All my friends ask, whats wrong with you? Playing with emotions is the wrong thing to do It's not wonder you came unglued You had some thing good and you let it slide on through Here I am sitting at the bar Staring out to space and looking far I tried to contact you but I don't know where you are My life I am trying to rearrange Living alone has me feeling strange This isn't working so I need to change Seeing a therapist cause I am such mess Don't like thing about me or the way I dress My life I really must readdress Trying to find a way to work my way back to you Hoping this letter finds it way to you I will do what ever I need to do To prove I can be someone good to you Please just say you will take me back I apologize for all my previous flack Just brighten my world that has faded black I know that your so confused I was wrong, you where feeling used My life was a ticking bomb that has since been defused I now can see clearly straight Just hoping its not late Please say our train has not left the gate If you came back it would be great D.B Johnson