My Son (Jack)

Dear God I woke not breathing
Why do my dreams suffocate me
Oh god I think I am dieing
Why do the nightmares return to me
Oh help I think I am falling
Why cant I open my eyes to see
Here come the tears the I'm crying
Why does your death still haunt me
Been about ten years since I'v seen you
Why did you have to go away
The nights are cold and lonely
Proof God doesnt answer every prayer I pray
Just once more I wish I could hold you
But that the hope of that has given away
My life is so uncomplete with out you
So many things I wish I could say
The road has been rough and bumpy
The tears I wish I could save
With out you I am so lonely
Been to long since I visited your grave
Your face etched in my memory
I try not to forget you, its hard but I,m doing my best
The only chance I got to hold you
I cradeled close to my chest
This life empty without you
Fate can be brutal and wild
A man so ashmed of crying
A father who misses his child
I know I need to move on
Live for today but I cant forget the past
Seems so cruel and unfair
Your first day of life was also your last
 
D.B. Johnson (In loving memory Jack 7-01-1999)