Not What I Expected

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    Poem Commentary

    Although I like using symbolism, this poem is mostly literal, like the second to the last paragraph about not recognizing the face.  I actually cannot recognize myself in a mirror. 

    This poem stems from the poem 'The Death Sound'...The part about the hair is literal also. 

    Not What I Expected

     He doesn't call me beautiful
    Any more.
    Since the day I cut my locks,
    I lost
    What I was looking for.

    To trade my pride
    For solice
    So a child would know
    I cared.
    T'was all I had
    To offer,
    Left my own,
    My soul to bear.

    Days
    Cannot replace
    Years lost
    To what
    I thought
    Was mine
    But wasn't.

    Wishes cannot reach
    Through clouded hearts
    Veiled through
    Blinded eyes
    Who see
    Only deficits
    And lies.

    Growing back
    Is a painful process.
    Once pruned, the bush
    Recedes, expecting torment.

    Lost, I wonder
    Where this road
    Has gone.
    Beneath the struggle
    Lies a pond
    Where I see
    A face
    I don't recognize.

    Eyes cloesd,
    I remember
    Feeble slumber
    Cocooned in 
    An evening
    Of restlessness. 


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    StandingBear commented on Not What I Expected

    06-26-2009

    A great continuation from a previous write .. "The Death Sound." "Lost, I wonder where this road has gone." Great lines, great write.
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    The true philosopher and the true poet are one, and a beauty, which is truth, and a truth, which is beauty, is the aim of both.

    Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

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